*This post is not meant to be read on phone screens.*
ABUSING SUNSHINE RUTHLESS
-Girish Jalihal -Shreya Tiwari
It is like an addiction
You smoke the pipe
It fills up your lungs
With a warm fuzzy feeling
But before you know
The pipe has sucked the shit out of you
Little did I know, You came with an agenda of your own.
To lure, to exploit, to cheat, to deprive.
What was once a smiling invitation,
Turned into a nightmarish exit.
And many have come since then, Each one worse than the other.
Some came in as family, While others as friends.
Each exit wound worse than the previous,
Each one leaving me broken and spent.
My emotions are violent
My words are bloody
You’re naive if you worry of scars
I can show you worse
I can wield a bloody axe in broad daylight
But tremble in my knees when I speak to you
Nobody realizes how possessive I am
I will slaughter sunlight if it touches you the wrong way
You haven’t made life any easier for me,
Being there till you wanted it.
Careful till you needed it.
Caring is not a virtue I’ve experienced from you,
So now you see what I’ve become?
Pebbled and ruined
What you made me
Is a junkie
Who can’t smoke anymore
Because he knows it will be a disaster
Every breath will be heavy
A part of me has died
But I am glad he did
I had to kill him off
To be able to live
These are only mind games,
And see you will, After a while,
When I will quit,
For I played no games,I held it all,
But all you’ve done,
Is push me to fall,
Play no mind games,
I see through it all.
My mind is sharper,Than You thought