Sitting in the same old room
I sit with my head held between my knees
Wondering if I’ll ever get my life together
Sometimes being able to smile seems like an achievement
Any trace of self confidence or esteem seems annihilated
The spirit that I had built
After conquering my insecurities
Is shattered again as I watch
People who were intimidated by me
Weak minded cretins with pusillanimous ways
Grow bigger and better than me with every passing day
It’s a strange form of irritation
A frustration mingled with sadness
It’s an abyss that was created
When all sense of pride
Vanished into thin air
Self worth now seems a delusion of grandeur
I scream internally
And pick up the pen
It’s a sickening routine but I’m addicted
I believe it exorcizes my demons
But writing only creates them
Gives them a form for the entire world to look at
To peep into the troubled psyche of an insecure little insect
I lose all sense of physical attachment
A complete desolation of identity
The lights go off
And the wretched apparitions of my mind
Reveal themselves on paper
As I write
‘Not a body, nor a thought
No emotion and no heart
I am nothing but a mere nocturnal reflection’
Haha nicely worded! Thank you man!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Giving the demons form on the pages that you pen allows you a creators strength to banish them from within. You are strong and wise ,you create and so can exorcise. Banish the demons and live freee
LikeLiked by 1 person
^_^
LikeLike
Haha yes! Thank you for your generous words! ๐
LikeLiked by 1 person
You are so welcome! You deserve my praise and a lot more of it!
LikeLiked by 1 person
This was so beautifully articulated. We all have certain secrets we tend to hide or run away from. I think at the end we are all nocturnal reflections as the darkness is a part of us too! Great piece, loved it! ๐
LikeLiked by 1 person
Dayuuum! Thank you so much miss! Your comment has made my day! Heck it is the best thing to happen to me in a while haha.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Wow. I love this. You have such an honest, beautiful way of writing. Thank you for sharing your gift…I would read a book of yours if you end up writing one.
LikeLiked by 2 people
Nice
LikeLiked by 1 person
๐
LikeLike
Thank you. I hope you have a great day, too. I am from Philly.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Haha. Hope you have a nice day miss ๐
Btw where are you from? Just curious to know
LikeLiked by 1 person
That it does.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Oh! I’m glad that my writing helped someone! Thank you for your comment! And yes life is beautifully tragic, it has a strange way of catching you off guard
LikeLiked by 1 person
Beautifully Tragic. Life can be rough. Thank you for this piece. I’m feeling a little anxious right now and this helped.
LikeLiked by 1 person